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8 Days

Sat Jan 24, 2009, 3:18 PM

Well, I just got home from the airport in PDX. Ashley and Evan are now in the air, somewhere between Portland and Boise. Some might say that I now have eight days of freedom - with no wife and no child at home. Truth is, I am going to miss them terribly. I will not have a wife to kiss when I leave (and come home from) work. I will not have a baby to play with, hold, and kiss when I am home. I wonder if Evan is going to ever freak out and call for "Dada" while he is away. I hope he will (secretly) but I also hope he will be good for Mommy while they are away.

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Mood: Neutral
Listening to: Marmalade purring
Reading: nothing
Watching: life
Playing: life
Eating: skin
Drinking: Pepsi

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~ik3 Jan 24, 2009, 4:21:18 PM

mmmmm, I could really say so many cheesy things for this but...nah, I won't

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-.- Mr. J Killed Mr. L, Don't Try To Convince Me Otherwise, I SAW Him Do It, We All Did -.-
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~anewzero Jan 24, 2009, 5:52:43 PM

ok.

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~OregonArtTeacher Jan 24, 2009, 6:39:20 PM

I know those feelings exactly. At first you think it will be awesome to have some time just by yourself, then you realize how empty, hollow, and silent your house feels with them gone. Last time that happened, I realized why I don't listen to music much, because my house is always full of noise, both joyful and otherwise. I think it is only single/non-parents people that have to fill their space with music all the time. At least thats a going theory.

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I must create a system or be enslaved by another mans; I will not reason and compare: my business is to create. - William Blake

~ik3 Jan 24, 2009, 10:12:54 PM

hope you're not feeling lonely though, are you??

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-.- Mr. J Killed Mr. L, Don't Try To Convince Me Otherwise, I SAW Him Do It, We All Did -.-
-.- I'd Rather Be DEAD Than Normal -.-

~anewzero Jan 24, 2009, 10:40:04 PM

yes. i am. and i've been drinking. that doesn't help.

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~anewzero Jan 24, 2009, 10:47:54 PM

i never actually thought it would be awesome. i love my wife and i know i will miss them both. secretly, i will miss Evan more. the quiet does annoy me more than anything. but music has always been solace to me. i will probably fall asleep to music tonight, if i fall asleep tonight. i am so accustomed to having ashley's body next to mine, to cuddle with, and to fall asleep with. ... ...

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~ik3 Jan 24, 2009, 11:10:27 PM

alcohol is evil ¬¬

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-.- Mr. J Killed Mr. L, Don't Try To Convince Me Otherwise, I SAW Him Do It, We All Did -.-
-.- I'd Rather Be DEAD Than Normal -.-

~OregonArtTeacher Jan 25, 2009, 9:04:14 AM

I guess awesome is the wrong word, just well...freeing, but in the end it is not what you would think it would be. Well before you know it you will be up to your eyelids in family again.

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I must create a system or be enslaved by another mans; I will not reason and compare: my business is to create. - William Blake

~anewzero Jan 25, 2009, 9:30:55 PM

Ok. Now I see what you mean. yes, it is nice to be able to go out and do things and NOT have to have Evan with me, NOT have to leave early because Evan needs a nap, NOT have to be home at a certain time to watch Evan or be in bed at a certain time with Ashley...but, I do still miss them. I didn't fall asleep until after 2:30 AM last night and woke up at 7:15 (late) - no shower, didn't brush teeth, no breakfast - that sucked! I honestly can't wait to be "up to [my] eyelids in family again". I love my wife and son. Thanks for the insight, pilgrim!